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Sunday, July 6, 2014


James Edward Avery, DVM


James Avery (



Saturday, July 5, 2014 2:58 PM

Dear Sister Beth,

This email will be my formal request for one hour of your time to be scheduled completely at your convenience. All that I ask, that there be two other people from your congregation present at this meeting; one of your most spiritual minded and one of your most pragmatic minded. And please do ask around for any information about me before this meeting. Before I even try asking for assistance/advice with my problem(s), I need, and it's only fair, the opportunity clearing any and all information(s) that could lead to any kinds of cognitive bias and/or dissonance. This will be the quickest/briefest way to a way that's fair to me.

The only way I can think of, trying to explain who I am, is through the use of mixed media collages.

In other words...




my tool/game figuring out other people's game.

a little bit of everything including the trinity, 
 I'm understanding to be: 
one substantive and two unsubstantive 
two substantive and one unsubstantive

art behind my colorful language:

 Father(Joseph the Parental Father as the Eternal Father, Son (take a lucky guess), Holy Ghost (the essence of his Mother Mary); different way of saying the same thing: sum of his parents in his father's absence.

Simply Jim: 
 One Pearl, Total Pig, Anti-Christ.

G. Robert Gary, Sr. ThD
 Arrogant Obtuse Swine.

His wife, Janet: 
 Pernicious Prevaricating Cunt. Also "THE HOSEA JOKE BETWEEN ME AND HER HUSBAND BOB." She's the one who started all this by crossing over to my side of the street first and introducing herself to me and Bob

Neighbor Charles W. Bliss: 

His partner Bobby B. Rasulnia: 
 Charlie's Iranian Uranium Enrichment Concubine. "Well! It's Charlie's money and he can spend it however he wants!"

Robin and Scott Dowel: 
 ROBIN THE LANDLORDS VAGINA MONOLOGUE. "All trees fall eventually." "Well if we cut one tree down, we might as well cut them all down." "It's a live tree. It's a pretty tree. For all we know it may live to be another hundred years?" "However, we'll let you cut it down if it is a concern of yours." After it finally fell eight months later, "Well. We only view this property of ours next to yours as an investment to help pay our children's way through school." They refuse to pay having it hauled out of my backyard, even though it destroyed a fir tree of mine, that was also a pretty tree, a live tree, for all we know it might have lived to be another hundred years.

And so you have an example of who I am. 
Or an example of who I've become.

Going to wrap this up with some quotes, another example of mixed media collages I use when trying to express myself, with the last quote slightly altered to reflect my hearing impairment:


At one point, he wrote to Thomas Paine, criticizing his manuscript, The Age of Reason:
"For without the Belief of a Providence that takes Cognizance of, guards and guides and may favor particular Persons, there is no Motive to Worship a Deity, to fear its Displeasure, or to pray for its Protection ... think how great a Proportion of Mankind consists of weak and ignorant Men and Women, and of inexperienced and inconsiderate Youth of both Sexes, who have need of the Motives of Religion to restrain them from Vice, to support their Virtue, and retain them in the Practice of it till it becomes habitual, which is the great Point for its Security; And perhaps you are indebted to her originally that is to your Religious Education, for the Habits of Virtue upon which you now justly value yourself. If men are so wicked with religion, what would they be if without it."
In 1790, just about a month before he died, Franklin wrote a letter to Ezra Stiles, president of Yale University, who had asked him his views on religion:
"As to Jesus of Nazareth, my Opinion of whom you particularly desire, I think the System of Morals and his Religion, as he left them to us, the best the world ever saw or is likely to see; but I apprehend it has received various corrupt changes, and I have, with most of the present Dissenters in England, some Doubts as to his divinity; tho' it is a question I do not dogmatize upon, having never studied it, and I think it needless to busy myself with it now, when I expect soon an Opportunity of knowing the Truth with less Trouble ..."

 Like Spinoza, Einstein was a strict determinist who believed that human behavior was completely determined by causal laws. For that reason, he refused the chance aspect of quantum theory, rejecting the concept of a god playing dice with the universe. In letters sent to physicist Max Born, Einstein revealed his devout belief in causal relationships:
"You believe in a God who plays dice, and I in complete law and order in a world which objectively exists, and which I in a wildly speculative way, am trying to capture. I firmly believe, but I hope that someone will discover a more realistic way, or rather a more tangible basis than it has been my lot to find. Even the great initial success of the quantum theory does not make me believe in the fundamental dice game, although I am well aware that some of our younger colleagues interpret this as a consequence of senility."
Einstein was then asked to what extent he was influenced by Christianity. "As a child I received instruction both in the Bible and in the Talmud. I am a Jew, but I am enthralled by the luminous figure of the Nazarene." Einstein was then asked if he accepted the historical existence of Jesus, to which he replied, "Unquestionably! No one can read the Gospels without feeling the actual presence of Jesus. His personality pulsates in every word. No myth is filled with such life."
He stressed however in a conversation with William Hermanns that, "I seriously doubt that Jesus himself said that he was God, for he was too much a Jew to violate that great commandment: Hear O Israel, the Eternal is our God and He is one!' and not two or three." Einstein lamented, "Sometimes I think it would have been better if Jesus had never lived. No name was so abused for the sake of power!" Nevertheless, he also expressed his belief that "if one purges the Judaism of the Prophets and Christianity as Jesus Christ taught it of all subsequent additions, especially those of the priests, one is left with a teaching which is capable of curing all the social ills of humanity."


John 5:30
I can of mine own self do nothing: as I sense, I judge: and my judgment is just; because I seek not mine own will, but the will of the Father which hath sent me.
- King James Bible "Authorized Version", Cambridge Edition

I'm convinced, all we are dealing with here is the sixth sense: the mind media, which the eastern cultures factor into their spiritual journeys. And this is what we need to be doing with America's spiritualism.

U=Pragmatic Competence?

Before I even discovered Spinoza through my research on Albert Einstein, I had already come to the conclusion, if there is to be a God, by definition there can only be one. This would then leave us with: We get the god we have; not the one you choose. And I'm unable seeing why there should be any difference between those people of faith and the rest of us. As you will find no two people believing in God exactly the same way; technically then, there are as many Gods as their are people claiming to believe in God. And this is what I like about being the radical atheist that I am, even a militant one who style Einstein would probably not approve as I have chosen to follow Einstein's lead that faith and science, both being the search for truths, originates and is controlled from the same part of the brain; that mere unbelief in a personal god, then, is no philosophy at all. Once one figures out, "the way the world is," being nothing more than "the sum of all of us," God can now hypothetically be given a face...a human face...but one that changing constantly like that of time on a digital clock with each second as "the sum of all of us' is constantly adding up differently departures and new arrivals. So I have decided to believe in "ZERO" god as opposed to "NO" god; even changing the spelling of God to g(0)d. And this leaves the only god available being my witness, if indeed one truly does exist, the one I refuse choosing to recognize or worship; the only one that be witness to us all. So don't go mistakenly believing, because I claim myself atheist, among many other things you may have heard about me, that this automatically puts God on your side against me. 

 But honestly, 
my intuition tells me that you and I already agree on the gist of who god is and how god operates. The only difference being, our style in how we should to go about enumerations of our sets. Just within the Christian sect, your set is still one of many. 

 I've come to the belief, the best way is to start all over with another attempt at a reset in the language we use discussing god and religion. And for this, we need another catalyst similar to what Jesus attempted with his use of phrases like "Son of Man"...and "flesh being born of flesh" with the rest made of "water" and "spirit".

But somewhere along the way, the meaning of "spirit" got high-jacked and we ended up with nothing but a "botched" Crucifixion.

4 “What can I do with you, Ephraim?
What can I do with you, Judah?
Your love is like the morning mist,
like the early dew that disappears.

5 Therefore I cut you in pieces with my prophets,

I killed you with the words of my mouth
then my judgments go forth like the sun.[a]

6 For I desire mercy, not sacrifice,

and acknowledgment of God rather than burnt offerings.

7 As at Adam,[b] they have broken the covenant;

they were unfaithful to me there.

8 Gilead is a city of evildoers,

stained with footprints of blood.

9 As marauders lie in ambush for a victim,

so do bands of priests;
they murder on the road to Shechem,
carrying out their wicked schemes.

I have lots ideas, 
 but I need sponsors helping me get past my lack of the "halo" effect on other people. 
 With today's world population roughly 33 percent Christians...

Jesus had his minute...and failed. Just think of it as a form of "negative" theology.

Okay! I lied when I said I was going to wrap this up! Sue me!

So...Rev. Dr. Beth; I'm so sorry to impose on you like this. It's not that I don't know what I'm doing due to my crystal methamphetamine addiction. I know exactly what I'm doing because of my crystal meths addiction. As I ended up having to perform my own drug addiction intervention after going to and from work as a veterinarian under the influence of this drug addiction almost everyday since it became a daily habit roughly around the year 1999 up until I told Janet Gary first ...Thanksgiving 2010...followed by telling everyone else as well; I spared no one. Therefore, although I've decided to retire from the practice of clinical veterinary medicine (it's not about the animals anymore/unless you can afford being referred to specialists such as Georgia Veterinary Specialist here in Metro Atlanta where humanized personalized medicine is practiced in stark contrast with our difficulty getting any forms of Universal Health Care legislation passed), the same as I've always been and forever will be Methodist no less than Jesus ever stopped being a Jew due to first eighteen years raised with First United Methodist Church of Prescott,Arkansas; James Edward Avery, DVM should get to be in control of his drug addiction intervention. This means he "should" get to choose the support groups he believes needing helping him get off this addiction since none care enough to initiate the intervention on my behalf themselves.

Of course I know this is not how real life works?

Don't be so sure about this;  
always a first time for everything...going both ways.

Again...Jesus had his minute. 
 As "OUR" story is such an important part of "MY" story; 
I am 
 seeing how this might actually work.

I'm trying to keep "OUR" story within the Methodist family. It's the last family I have left. The memories anyway. I've given up on my immediate family living in Arkansas. But they are not really Methodists anyway. Except my father, now deceased, and Mike Avery Ross who is my second cousin.
Now that he's running for Governor of Arkansas, will not be surprised he becomes less "Blue Dog" than he was as Representative of Arkansas's 4th district; even switching parties once elected Governor. If you really want a good book to read in which one could learns a lot about human nature, it would be one detailing the parallel lives and thoughts, if able getting the other two to be halfway truthful, of mine as James Edward Avery, DOCTOR OF VETERINARY MEDICINE, of Mike Avery Ross, BLUE DOG DEMOCRAT, and author of JESUS UNPLUGGED.... G. Robert Gary, Jr., MASTER OF DIVINITY. We all three are as pure Methodist as you can get.

You remember me mentioning my version of the trinity: two substantive and one unsubstantive vs two unsubstantive and one substanstive?

A different way of saying the same thing: "Quality of a good leader is one able disappointing his/her own people at a rate they can absorb." Personally witness this within the only sermon of yours I've heard so far regarding the removal from Methodist by-laws, the section barring self avowed homosexuals as ordained ministers, to a congregation roughly 80 percent homosexual males. 

 Did I read this correctly?

Anyway, I'm not particularly pleased by what I'm seeing out of the other two...?

As a reference point, something I would like to guage, would be my opinions of Wayne Besen of TRUTH WINS OUT (TWO) to the average of your THE GAY ONE (TGO) CHURCH.

I'm not out looking to make friends out of your church; just looking to see if your church can, 
where others have failed 
(most especially Glenn Memorial United Methodist Church)...

"All of us are familiar with the famous line attributed to F. Scott Fitzgerald,
that “the test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposing ideas in
mind at the same time and still retain the ability to function.” Less famously,
Conor Cruise O’Brien (contributing editor to The Atlantic magazine) described an
intellectual as “someone who is prepared to admit when another has made a
point in a debate.”

On both counts it’s fair to wonder whether our society has lost some of its
capacity for instilling—or at least requiring—this kind of intellectual
capaciousness, this (perhaps uniquely human but too often underemployed)
ability to experience or understand life from another person’s perspective.
Can you imagine the talking heads on some of the cable TV channels and AM radio
stations pausing in the middle of their heated exchanges and saying, “You know,
Bill, or you know Sean, or you know, Tim – I think you have a point there.” It
doesn’t happen, or at least it doesn’t happen often. We are a society
increasingly trained to hold on like bulldogs to a narrow way of viewing things.
Perhaps it is in our sense of surety, founded or unfounded, that we find comfort."

And this is James Wagner I'm quoting:

A Time for Courageous Universities
James W. Wagner
Emory University
Address to the National Press Club
25 April 2007

Sounded very pretty didn't it?

Now compare his statement with Wikipedia explanation of:

In psychology, cognitive dissonance is the excessive mental stress and discomfort experienced by an individual who (1) holds two or more contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values at the same time or (2) is confronted by new information that conflicts with existing beliefs, ideas, or values. This stress and discomfort may also arise within an individual who holds a belief and performs a contradictory action or reaction.

Leon Festinger's theory of cognitive dissonance focuses on how humans strive for internal consistency. When inconsistency (dissonance) is experienced, individuals largely become psychologically distressed. His basic hypotheses are listed below:
  1. "The existence of dissonance, being psychologically uncomfortable, will motivate the person to try to reduce the dissonance and achieve consonance"
  2. "When dissonance is present, in addition to trying to reduce it, the person will actively avoid situations and information which would likely increase the dissonance"

If I'm understanding this correctly, do not believe it can be done James Wagner's way...unless living a lie.

And any form of manipulations and deceptions eliminates  the possiblity consent.

Sincerely yours,
James E. Avery, DVM

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